Joyeux Noel

I have so many things to talk about, but I don't know where to start. So I won't. I'm just gonna take a rest and let it all incubate, and maybe I'll try to form some sentences tomorrow or something. Hope everyone's holiday was great. The real world is knocking on the door. Merry Christmas.

Rug

So I just had a pretty intense experience, and I'm really not sure how I feel about it. I don't wanna say anything on here because the experience was private, and this blog is public. Don't mix. I just know it affected me, and I'm not sure if it changes how I feel about this girl. Hmmm. I'll tell anyone who wants to know, just not on here. Aloha.

Avatar

Not bad James Cameron, you win this round.

Shining Through

Maybe it will become something beautiful.

Absinthe

Cocktail Party tonight!!! So pumped to dress up. And since a few other people I know have doing a post like this, here it goes

My iPod has been playing a lot of:
Four Year Strong
Andrew Jackson Jihad
Radiohead (The Bends)
Blink 182 (Always on)
Weezer (Always on)
Them Crooked Vultures
Coheed and Cambria
Kid Cudi (Cudderisback is such a good song)

Welp seeya later. I'm gonna look damn good tonight

Sissy Nation

Maureen just got me this book for Christmas, and I'm so pumped to start reading it. Look it up. Its gonna be a great break.

Mute

The last few days have been...boring. Being home is nice though, Parma is like a vacation from the stress of school. The stress of everything. I get to rest, be with the people I want, and make money. Fuck money. That shouldn't be one of the reasons I'm happy to be home. Also there's my little brother. Seriously my best friend on the planet. I consider Allen family, but I love my brother Nick.

Also, one of the new girls at Romeo's was told that I "wanted" her by my friends. They just love to bust my balls about the way I talk to girls. So now I have this situation on my hands, and its just weird because I don't really ever talk to this girl.

Alright well I think I'm done here, I've noticed that since I've been home my computer time has dropped drastically. Don't know what it is, must be the water.

P.S. I almost felt bad posting this, it will be my 70th post, and now I can't say 69. Lame

P.P.S. I have a little note I typed out on my iPod Touch on the ride down to Mansfield last Saturday, it flows a little like a poem or song. I might post it up here. iDunno.

Utah

I want to make a pitcher of lemonade and drink it on my front porch with somebody. Then I want to walk up to the circle and sit on a park bench and just kinda look around, and talk, and jump from topic to topic. And just enjoy the company enough to not wanna leave when it got too cold. Not that it would be winter cold, but just the chill of the night. We'd walk back and then watch some movies. Done rambling, goodnight.

...fuck

Well it started as a just a twinge of jealousy, but by the end of the night, I was about ready to leap across the room. I guess that feeling kinda confirms it. Ugh. I'm really starting to wish things were simple.

I'll never be a liar

I feel like everyone I know needs to quit fucking whining. Everyone is so pissy lately, and obviously its rubbing off in the post. Is life in the long run really that bad? No, so quit bitching, you have your health, family, and friends. If everyone were to just take a step back, calm the hell down, and just deal, the world would be a lot better place. Happy Birthday

French Roast

Goodbye shitty Cyber Cafe coffee, even if I did become quite accustomed to you. This is the last post from this apartment. I know I talked about it last night, but I'm finally leaving. Peace Mansfield!

Futon

Tonight is the last night I'll stay in my apartment in Mansfield, sleeping on a futon, falling asleep to Comedy Central. These three months went by so fast, and even though I was pretty lonely, I'm gonna miss being on my own I think. I dunno, there is a sense of self realization when you live alone, when you provide for yourself, and do things for you. I am my own man. So I say goodnight futon, and hello dorm. Oh yeah and a month in Parma in between. Gotta love the suburbs.

Contains Nuts

Only one more final to go, then its four weeks of break. Wootwoo!!!! Best part: Its a Civil War test, and thanks to the wonderful Mr. Cyr, I will nail the exam on mostly prior knowledge. Parma really did have a kickass history program if nothing else. I really wanna see the lights downtown this weekend, maybe I'll ask Moreween. Whatever, ttylilyb

1986

I miss my old Fiero. It was such a great car to have, so rare. It was a stick and only had two seats, it was basically the best "date" car ever. It was never messy because of how small it was, and its probably what I miss most from my high school years. Ahhhhh Fiero, I'm definitely gonna buy another one sometime. That is all.

Liquid Plumber

I need an western/cross country adventure. So today at Allen's we decided that next year after my 21st birthday, we're gonna take a month and drive west. Zig-zag city to city, state to state. We've actually been talking about this for awhile now, and hopefully we'll get some good writing material. I think a trip of that sort would be exactly what I need. Gathering up all sorts of inspiration from new places across the country with my best friend. I'm really pumped. Plus, I've been around for almost two decades, and I haven't accomplished much, I need something to be proud of. A truly lasting experience. K-O

I

want.

Send me out with a bang

So Everlong is probably my favorite song of all time. It needs to start snowing already, its not fun when its just cold.

Bebop and Rocksteady

Be consistent, but not predictable. Live in the moment. Live for the moment. Don't get caught up in the moment. Greet warmly. Speak with substance. Say what you mean. Let little things slide sometimes. Act with purpose, unless its time to let loose. Rock hard. Rock loud. Don't be completely reckless. Read. Love. Forgive. Laugh deep. Be true to yourself. Make some alone time. Don't forget your friends. Smile more often then frown. Be appropriate. Be cordial. Crack a joke. Most of all, be happy. The world is a rough enough place as it is. Boom, outta here.

God's Hula Hoop

So I dvr'd a shit ton of movies over Thanksgiving break because we had free movie channels. Now I just need someone to watch them with. Watching a lot of movies alone sucks sometimes. Darjeeling Limited anyone?

Adam Ohio

Feeeel my influence! You have made a blog, and you shall post. Muhahahaha

Where is the old you, I miss her.

So why are we even friends anymore? You never have anything nice to say, not just about me, but about the world in general. Anything that comes out of your mouth is just over cynical bullshit and I'm sick of it. We used to just sit and chill in our classes, talk and joke about anything. I used to think we were pretty similar people, but this year has definitely changed that view. You used to read this, and I hope you still do, because you'll probably never hear this from me. Not that I don't want to tell you, its just that I'm not gonna go out of my way to start shit. I really don't care enough. If we don't talk after I move out, I really don't care. You've changed, and not in the good way. And in all honesty, I feel like you've become a toxic person. So I'm done with it, personally, I feel great about my self right now, and I have good reason. Boom Headshot.

Frederick Douglas

Arizona Green Tea, I <3 You. You are always delicious, no matter the hour. Thank you

Bet you can't stick it.

Well, I started writing a few things down for my paper, and it's actually coming together. Silly Confederates, if only they knew that slavery was actually destroying them, the rebels might have had a chance. Whatever.

I need to sack up and do things more often. I calculate too much, look at the risk, weigh my choices, then act. I going to be more compulsive, with some things. I think its reckless and irresponsible to just throw caution to the wind constantly. There is a time and place for everything I guess, and sometimes I think my life would be a lot better if I acted on impulse more often.

Also, I really need to get back to skating, the benefits were amazing. I would literally lose all my worries and just ride. I was never even that good, it was just so much fun to just chill on the board.

Finally, I need to see Allen more often. He's my best friend, and we haven't hung out in weeks. We used to just loiter the mall during Christmas and get wrapped up in the season. We would fucking talk for hours and laugh at the stupidest fucking jokes. I miss you man, and I hope you read this. When he moves to Dayton, I'm really gonna be missing a major part of my heart. I hope he goes far. He really has talent, he just needs to get a start somewhere, then he'll be off. <3

I thinks its time I got back to my paper.

P.S. That Becca thing is over, she still has feelings for her ex. We decided to just stop talking. I told her to keep me in mind. I got too excited I think, but in the end, I don't really care. It was fun while it lasted. Hanno una bella serata.

Ninety Percent, Chief!

Kinda funny story. Today, I took a power nap instead of working out, so I needed to head back up to the school to print some Psych Articles. Its about eight, so the place is basically abandoned, I get in, get out. As I'm leaving the a computer lab, some girl is leaving another lab, and we basically run into eachother. We say sorry, then have that awkward leave in the same direction thing. I hold the door for her and we start walking to the same parking lot. Right as we get there, she branches off and we start walking in almost opposite directions. I decide that I wanna get a look at her one more time, so at a "safe" distance I turn almost completely around, just to see her doing the same exact thing! It was right out of a corny romance comedy. So I wave and yell, "I'm Mike!", and she yells back her name, Kasey. Thats it. I thought it was funny. Sidenote: I have a delicious sub and lemonade ready, and I feel a wave of inspiration coming on. PUMPED.

Nothing is true

Felice Dicembre. Looking at my blog posts, I saw that almost half of my posts came in November. I find that a little ridiculous, considering I thought last month was very uneventful! But my blog begs to differ. I'm just about done with this quarter, and I could not be more excited. Also, I really want another tattoo. A lot. Well I'm in the computer lab at Ovalwood, so I should really get back to Psych Summaries. Sadface. Again, have a Happy December. <(")

Everything is permitted.

Soooo ladies love the scarf and long coat combo. Score! Thats all.

Firenze

Renaissance Italy is a time period I'm going to have to learn more about. Sooooo cracked my iPod further, and all and all this break was ok. Just ok. Watching "Backstairs at the White House" in Maureen's basement for five hours was probably the highlight. Not that it was a bad thing. I really love history, and personal accounts are fascinating. Ten more days till break, then a month till Columbus. Ready, set, go.

Surf Wax America

Some days I wish I could just surf out the rest of my days. I dunno, I need to get away for awhile, and break can't come soon enough. Also, its nights like tonight that makes me wish some things in my life were different. I always have a nice time. Boom goes the dynamite.

Yeah

Not that big of a deal. I guess things just add up. The only thing I know for sure is I want a lot of Turkey.

Byzantine

Its days like today that you wear your bangs in your face. You go on a long bike ride, or just chill on your board. I need to adopt a more apathetic lifestyle. I'm feeling some complex feelings right now. More later. Bye.

Mutt

LAME. That was a whole lot of not fun. I'm just really confused.

Do you like my stupid hair?

I feel bad talking about going on dates and someone else on a public blog, so I'm just gonna keep it short and sweet. So second date went as well as it possibly could have. We went to dinner (delicious), watched movies, and cuddled up. The conversation was never dry. I'm feeling good. All is good on the personal front, even if I'm starting to have some conflicting feelings. But of course, I can never balance school, money, and personal things. I just can't wait for this quarter to be over. I just wanna hit that damn lotto and write stupid songs and books for the rest of my days. Seriously money, and more so greed, is the root of all evil. I'll believe that till the day I die. Well I'm done for now, Go Browns.

Smidge.

Tonight went as good as it possibly could have. Slow moving is good. More info later. Hope.

Oh and

Update on the finger, can't fully straighten or bend still. Plus its still bruised at swollen. Its more annoying that painful. Night.

Civil War

Currently 3 in the morning, I have 6 primary sources to read, so I decided to blog. Uhm weekend was great, went to Cory's in Columbus Friday afternoon, stayed all weekend. Drink drink drink. On the whole had fun, even if I walked that entire town twice, whilst sloshed. Sorry again KB for the drunk texts, don't know if you still read this or not. I hope you do :-) Cracked iPod screen (wasn't even drunk yet), Jaeger bombs at 9:30 A.M. and a 80 dollar bar tab. Yeah that basically sums it up. Got a little flirtatious with some ladies, but nothing went down. I am super pumped for date number two with Becca Bodacious. She seems like a stellar girl. I use the word stellar because lately I <3 Incubus. Again. Modern Warfare is slowly taking over my life annnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnd punt, see you soon. Maybe I'll write some kind of opinion thing on here about a current event soon. Whatever, peace

B. Bodacious

Yup, definitely feeling this. There is some hope. Longer post about the weekend tomorrow or sometime.

P.S. 40 posts woot woo!

This past year, or so.

The past few days worth of alone time has got me thinking a lot about my past. I think back at the last year or so, and I realize, I've done a shit ton! Here's where I list some highlights, and lo-lights of my year, in no particular order: I've bought a jeep, fell in love, popped an appendix, got surgery, bought a flat-screen (for less than the jeep), went on a vacation out of country, fell out of love, started school, lived with 5 people, lived alone, I've had 3 apartments, read at least 18 books (6 of which were novels, the others history books), bought a laptop, had 3 different phones, lost 30 pounds, gained 15 (in the good way), put up 300 on the bench, started writing a story with Allen, kept a blog, put 20,000 miles on my jeep, met ridiculous amounts of new people, had a few love interests, bought a guitar (if only I was BA at it), volunteered for campaign work, made at least $10,000, starting writing songs, and now I'm moving again. Two months. But really the most important part of all these things is how much I've grown as a person. I've matured into who I'm gonna be, I know who my friends are, and I know what and who I love and want in my life. I know that in the next few years I will learn so much and continue the never ending pursuit of knowledge. This was only my first year of college. I just applied for a page position in the state house in Columbus, where I'll be working under a senator. So pumped. I have a lot of life in me, and I'm ready to release.

Sidenote: Slammed a 90lb weight on my right ring finger today. Sadface. I don't think its broken.

Talk to ya soon.

Computer Lab

As my title suggests, I'm writing this from a computer lab at school. A little strange for me, but I'm extremely bored and I'm just gonna get this weekends post out of the way. For the most part, the weekend was fantastic. I got back to Parma on Thursday because Mansfield sucks, ugh. Friday I worked then kicked some ass in Madden, and in the process won two buffalo chicken wraps, score! Then Saturday was the big day, blind date extravaganza. Nick and I went to Tara's house to pick them up, and it was so stereotypical because once we got in the house, they were both at the top of the stairs. So funny, T comes down first, then my date, Becca. I just imagined slow-mo her walking down the stairs, and I'm pretty sure I laughed to myself out loud. We went to see Christmas Carol in 3D, which at first I was super skeptic, but it was fantastic. Seriously a great movie. Then we went to Dennys and tried to get to know eachother more. She is really cute and super nice. So we exchanged phone numbers, and hopefully that will go somewhere. Then Sunday morning. War. Pick-up Football at Forge. Played with about 15-18 guys. It was intense, and I'm still so fucking sore. My entire right ass cheek is bruised, but at least we got some big hits. The rest of Sunday was shit. I can't believe how hurt I was, not from football, from someone. If you do read this, which you say you don't, you know who are. Whatever I'm done with that, you can come to me from now on. School Monday, destroyed my civil war test, then back to pick up Modern Warfare 2. Back to school this morning and then Columbus in a few days. I've realized I don't stop moving. I travel all the time. Back and forth. I'm pretty happy right now, and it looks like things are in an up-swing. Who knows. I'll be back on here tonight. Bye Bye Beautiful.

Tosser.

Just so you know, your picture is no longer showing on my desk, not after yesterday.

In My Dreams

So I've decided I nap toooooooo much. I slept for four hours after class today! Then I worked out, and now I'm tired again. Lame. I need food. I feel like a warm meal and a solid eight hours of sleep could fix my life. Not thats it broken, but you get the point. Tomorrow I'm going to Aj's and I've been informed we are going to write at least a few chapters in our story. Sadly production has stalled over the past few weeks, and all I have to say is I hope he bought the good Absinthe. Welp seeya later!

Longcoat Love.

So I've been noticing that when I sleep for the night, I don't dream so much, at least that I can remember; but when I take little naps, I dream some crazy shit! It used to be all fantastic, such as Nick and I being James Bond types, but Nick had salt and pepper hair. Or my brother and I beating up our neighbor who was a rapist and a gnome. Then he came at us with a gun, and accidently killed his gnomey wife. But recently its been strange things like imagining my friend Abby and her boyfriend broke up, and just today, that I got up off my futon and went and talked to my mail man just in my boxer briefs. Now I'm not sure if that really happened! It was so vivid. Also I nailed my Cognitive Psychology Exam today and I feel pretty damn great. Annnnnnd I love my new longcoat. The End.

...and!

Thank you KBmania for the Defiance OH CD's. You tha bomb.

=w=

Yep, just got the greatest email ever on my Blackberry. iTunes just told me my pre-order for the newest Weezer CD "Raditude" is now available. Ballin! So excited, time to link to a funny video. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zXqHfHN9dJs&feature=youtube_gdata. Enjoy that gem. Peace!

Well

Oh man 30 plus posts. Landmark for sure.

Making Lemonade

This weekend was really something. I didn't realize it until I looked back. I was all over the place and did not stop moving, from Friday at 2pm, till Saturday at 430am. Sooooo much fun. Friday I went to a costume party with a friend dressed as a ninja turtle with a tuxedo t-shirt. I didn't have any of my own beer or booze, so I got messed up on jungle juice, for free. Awesome. To say the least it was an eventful night, but I'm a gentleman, so I'm not blogging about that. (WINK). So partied, then woke up at 1030, and drove allllll the way to Parma for work at two. I worked all day, made a good amount of money, then went to Megan's for Romeo's party. Rinse and Repeat. 330 get home and drink a little with my parents. Passout, then laid around and watched football all Sunday. Such a relaxing weekend. Also I transferred to Columbus campus Friday and I can't wait to restart college. Environment-wise. Life is sweet. Kthxbai.

YES

I just got back to my apartment, and I successfully (three double consonants in that word, weird) transferred to Columbus! Woohoo! And since I started at a regional OSU campus, and I'm a history major, I'll have a shiny Associates Degree of the Arts once I hit my 90th credit hour. So fucking cool. I'm pumped for life. I'm gonna go pwn some noobs in Halo, then Columbus for a costume party. Fuck yeah. Boom! Outta here.

Skateboard.

I wish I had a portable skateboard that I could just whip out when walks were starting to get annoying. Anywho, I stumbled upon a local music show going on in the parking lot of Richland Mall. I was pleasantly surprised by a local punk band. I didn't know Mansfield knew what punk rock was. They weren't bad, I think they were called Validated Parking or something like that. I dunno. I need to get out of this funk though, its been a rough couple of days. Short post.

Last night

Completely out of control. Completely. I went to Heather's at 11 to drink a little, but I didn't plan on getting drunk, because I had class at 10, but things don't always go as planned. The person who brought us alcohol also brought 3 others to drink to with us. Everyone is playing kings and having a decent time. We started to play pong at about midnight and I lost 3 times against Heather and her ex. So I was already drinking more than I had planned. I finally got my first win, so I switched up teams and I play with Heather against her ex and her roommate Sara. Thats when all hell broke loose. Chandon, the kid who bought the alcohol, started arguing about how much he was paid to get the beer, and all the arguing caused Sara to start crying irrationally. I mean on the ground balling. So as everyone started to file out, Sara continued to cry, and was being hit on by Chandon, and I had enough of that. You don't try to take advantage of a drunk girl, you just don't you fucking creep. So he pushed me. I hope his fucking nose is broke. Its now 3, Heather and her ex are fighting, everyone else is out in the hallway. Everyone finally leaves and its just Sara, Heather, her ex, and me. Heather and her ex argue in the hallway til about 5, then Heather and I fall asleep on a loveseat til Heather hears Sara crying again, and goes and lays with her. I wake up at 830 then drive home, shower, class. Ridiculous! I'm mentally tired. I need someone in my life, and the one person I can think of, will probably never grasp how much I've been there for her over the years. Ever. I'm done. Time to open completely new doors. This weekend show be awesome, hopefully I'll be Batman. Peace

Oh yeah!

I forgot! Funny story, it was 2 in the morning on Saturday and I get a phone call from Nick, and he starts the conversation "Hey wanna kick someone's ass?" So I got dressed and we went to Murphy's girlfriend's house and then back to Brownfield, to find some drunk bitches that were trying fight Sarah (Murphy's Girlfriend). End of story, nobody to fight, and we got yelled at by drunk bitches from the corner. LAME, but kinda funny.

Footlong Spicy Italian.

If you can't tell, I'm hungry. Aside from that, the return to normalcy is complete. I'm chilling alone in Mansfield, hungry and healthy, gonna eat and watch Heroes. Yay for schedules. This week is going to drag on, nothing doing till possibly Thursday, everything else is up in the air. Columbus Friday will be awesome, then Megan's Halloween Party! I can't wait, I love Halloween. I've decided to go to Columbus in the winter, I don't think I'll make it living alone. I'd go crazy first, loneliness is a very powerful thing, it really just depresses me. Seriously, bad stuff. The only thing it helps, is that I write a shit ton more. i'll write here, write personally, trying song-writing, seriously, nothing else to do. It also makes me miss too much of my past, I really need something to be excited about. Well I'm done for now.

PS Secret Girlfriend is hilarious.

Happiness

So its been too long since I wrote here. I really enjoy this blog. I've been sick for the past couple of days, so I've missed class on Monday and Tuesday (today), and really, I don't want to go back. Last year it was different, I loved being at school, and its not like my classwork is any harder this time around, I've discovered its because I live alone. Here in Parma, I have my family, I have people, like I did last year on campus housing. But when I go to school now, I have nothing but myself and my own place. So I have come to the same conclusion that Christopher McCandless did right before he died alone in Alaska, "Happiness is only real when shared". Its really a beautiful quote, and it comes from one of my favorite movies of all time, the true story of a trip across the country. Solitude gives moments of joy and self-discovery, but to maintain a lasting happiness, you need people. People that love you and that you love back. It really gives me some peace, even if I feel weak and tired. I need physical activity, and tomorrow, I'm gonna get back in the gym. Teddy Roosevelt would be proud. Ha, talk to you soon.

Sick

I'm tired of not being appreciated. Its the worst feeling in the world to be set aside. I really think I have everything else in check. Great. Tomorrow I get to call Mastercard and give them shit, because they are telling me I paid my credit card late, when I have a receipt with the correct date on it. Prepare to be owned. Other than that, the weekend was awesome. Saw Zombieland again, aaaaaaaaand went to Cedar Point, good stuff. Short post, welp seeya later.

I-71

The skyline from the highway was a sight to behold. It was just me on my way back to Parma and the light bouncing off the slick road was just perfect. I loved it.

Awkward Situation

So when you follow someone through a door, and they hold it open for you, you say thank you. But if you follow them through a small waiting area through another set of doors, and they hold it, do you say thank you again? I was never really sure. Haha

Damnit

I just got my books for my easy ass world civ. class (That rhymes) and I bought the wrong edition. For both of them. LAME. Anyway, today was nice. I had lunch with my Grandpa at the best restraunt in Mansfield (Cheddar's). He told me to explore my area a bit, and remember that it takes nothing to be nice, and I really think that is some damn good advice. He is so good with people, I always try to model myself after him. So after he bought me some Febreze, I went for a jog around my place, and ended up running some hills. It was some cool shit. I love him. It was a little scary running past houses, and thinking, "Yeah, crystal meth is probably been done in there." That was definitely weird.

Other than that life is good. For sure. Living here is a fantastic time, but I'm seriously considering giving Columbus a chance, before I'm outta this school. Okay, later. BOOM HEADSHOT!

Always check the backseat.

See Zombieland, and you'll understand the title. Thank you. The past couple of days have been busy to say the least. Blink was postponed till this Wednesday(9/30), so after class I drove to Parma, to drive to Cuyahoga Falls, to sit in traffic, to be rewarded with a fucking awesome show. Seriously, way to show up, Blink 182. Crash in Parma, be in Mansfield by 9 the next morning for class. A really easy class, World Civ. Then Cognitive fucking Psychology, not an easy class, especially when,"Ben Stein's little brother is trying lecture on emotion" (Thanks Abby). Oh yeah then drive back to Parma for work Friday and Saturday. I need a massage. Still all the activity is so rewarding. Good stuff. What does it mean when someone tells you they miss you. Do they miss seeing you around, hearing your voice? Or is it your presence in their life? Do they just want you to be there? Or is it just humoring an old friend? Considering how easy it is to communicate with Facebook, Twitter, Blogs, Cell Phones, why should people ever really lose touch? Priorities are always out of whack, and occasionally they align, but only for a little while. Then its back to being caught up. I knew what I meant when I said it, but I can never be sure when she says it back. Lame. Work is in a few hours, Facebook is down for me, I'm not tired, and there isn't a TV in this room anymore. Sweet. To top it off, I'm on an air mattress and my toes are cold. I hate it when my toes are cold. Guaranteed they are the last part of my body to warm up. Seriously, thats the only thing I don't like about colder weather, my damn toes. Other than all my complaining(just gotta let it out sometimes), the next few months hold alot of promise, and I'm excited about a few things. And a few people. Fuck this clown.

This weekend and upcoming week. And a little introspection

Well this week started my new routine for the next few months. Go to Parma on Thursday, work 22 hours between Friday and Saturday, go home to Mansfield Sunday, off for a week. Riveting. Friday night, I almost got into a fight with some loser kids with skateboards, but I guess the police were too close, so they never made a move. I was ready, but I don't like to fight, especially for the stupidest reasons. Damn kids. I guess their group had gotten into some shit at McDonalds and they were ready for a fight. I also assume they didn't see the police cruiser a parking lot over, until they got close enough to us. It was close. I'm beginning to come to grips with the fact that I'm starting to get a little lonely, the freedom is great, but its a weird feeling to get used to falling asleep all alone. Completely alone. I dunno, I'm probably just still adjusting. I'm still enjoying being here though, so I haven't decided where I want to be for the next three years. Every day is going by so fast, and even though I'm starting to piece things together in my life, I really wish I could find someone to share all the things I have with. All my thoughts, all my emotions. I feel like my mind is running at maximum constantly, but as much as I may need it, I really don't want a break. I need someone that can match that with me. I miss that certain feeling. Alot. Other than that its back to a shit ton of reading for my history classes. I want nothing more than to be a historian on one of those specials on the History Channel. So cool. And...boom goes the dynamite. OMGWTFBBQ

Alone

I live all alone now, in my own apartment. This is fucking sweet. I'm reading for my history class with a bowl of reeses puffs and it is so great. Just thought I'd let you know. NOM NOM

Air Mattress

I'm wide-eyed and all ears my love...Well I had a great day today. Apartment setup tomorrow, then done finally. I'm writing this from the air mattress in the middle of floor I've been living on the past few days. Its actually not that bad. I could use it as a permanent bed and not care. My dear, if I could only turn back time. Nightnightnight.

Pickled Pigs Feet

Don't expect anything. Ever. Make no assumptions. Example, I was scheduled til 8, strolled out at 10:30, 2 and half hours richer. If I had plans I would have been mad, but that is just how Romeo's works, you get out when you get out. Its like this, my boss has poured so much of himself into this store for the past three years, and now he may be getting bought out by his business partner who was supposed to be his friend. My boss was a hard worker, and he's trained everyone in there. Yeah he can get pissy sometimes, but its his time and his money being spent so whatever. I'm only in this town for a few more days, then its Mansfield solitude. I guess its time to get smarter again. Love, I miss it.

P.S. I started the first paragraph today.

P.P.S. I want a longboard.

P.P.P.S. This is hilarious, and they're my favorite band--->http://www.spinner.com/2009/09/11/weezers-raditude-cover-is-doggone-awesome/

Bip Bap Bam Bye

Apartment and School.

First of all, my apartment is the bomb diggity and more than enough room for one person. This little fish is gonna grow so much in this big pond. Downside is I might get lonely, but whatever, I plan on being busy. Alot. As for school, I'm pumped to get back to class, but I'm thinking of transferring. OSU is like paying for the brand name product that isn't even that great, and extremely pricey what you are paying for. I'd rather go to a better school for the money and effort I'm throwing down. Thats another thing, I love the feeling of sustaining myself, off my money. I hate money, but its a great feeling to rely on yourself. Also, I constantly feel like a chapter of my life is just waiting to begin. There are always so many to walk your path, but me, I wanna fly. Boom outta here.

Novel

Everytime I sit and think about writing with Allen a new idea pops in my head. Its fantastic! Something is actually coming of this, its no longer just chit chat. Everything is so inspiring lately, I wish I was just more creative, or musical. Welp short post, seeya later!

Writing

Aj and I are finally putting words down on paper. I love it. Such a great feeling to actually create something original and let out some creative energy at the same time. I found out I got my apartment today, and I just have to pay off the lease, and housing is settled. So now that the big stressers in my life are nailed down, time to micro manage. Work is going good, I'm just torn on school, and some people. Some people. School starts soon anyway, structured working should do me some good. Boomboom seeya.

Bike ride

The feeling I get when I ride my bike is like none other. They make my day. Little CJ turned 3, he is great. Almost had to protect people in Highland Heights, then finish up the night at "My Friends" restraunt in Lakewood. Great day. Bike rides rock, look at the pictures on facebook. Lovles.

Today.

Work 12-5, got off at 8:30. It was busy, but I can dig the fat cash. (Bitches). Relations are still strained and maybe they always will be, I stopped caring. I'm not sacrificing anything else. I like it when its busy in there. Ha! Tomorrow, granted it dries up a bit, I'm going up Big Creek with my bike and camera and taking a lot of pictures. I need somebody I think. Boomboom, outta here.

Drawing

So I need to find better ways to express myself creatively. Following my awesome bike ride yesterday I had an image stuck in my head, so finally today I put it on paper. Sadly it looked kinda like a doodle, but once I put some color in it, it might have some potential. Eventually I'd like to paint it, even though I've never really painted.

Allen and I are writing something together but I need more. Peace and goodbye.

A head.

Looks like things are about to boil over, and the next few days might be some kind of hell. Hopefully when the dust settles, friendships will be reformed.

Enough of that though, today ended up not being so shitty. After losing my headphones, my biking bag, my alan keys, and almost my mind, I actually got around to the bike ride. It did wonders. Nothing like taking a winding trail through the woods. So much inspiration and so serene. After that, things were looking up, coinstar gave me 14 dollars and Taco bell gave me lava sauce on a crunchwrap. So good. Hopefully things work out, but if not, hell I'm going to school in a few weeks and I'll still have my diginity. Bawk bawk out.

Don't Ever

Don't ever try to get with a friend's ex. It messes with everything, even if you're right in doing it. Its been months and things are still messed up. I risked so much trying to have it all, and so far the only thing that I've got from it was life experience. I know who I am, and what I know is the right thing. I'm happy they're happy, but I wish I still had close friends like I did. There is so much animosity for the thing we made eachother do, and go through. It sucks. The people I know now piss me off so much, I can't stand to be in the same area sometimes, even when I pride my self on rolling with the punches and taking the hit. I hope things improve. Whelp, seeya later.

A few things.

Well it has been a damn long time since I posted something on here, I'm just not dedicated enough. I constantly have thousands of things running through my head, and I always have something to rant about and should really use that energy. I'm going to start writing more, I just had so much to write for school when I started this blog, I didn't wanna write on the side.
So I'm gonna start doing this more often, maybe not lengthy posts, just whats going on in my head for the day.
By the way, I met Claudio Sanchez from Coheed and Cambria today, and he signed my 360 controller. He was such a cool and soft spoken dude. Check out my facebook for our awesome picture.
Outty.

Night

I get my best thinking done at night, and here is a thought: Write on the blog!!!
Finals are next week, and then spring break, so I expect to be writing alot. I am so full of inspiration right now, its amazing. Have a nice night everyone.

Mike

Late Night

Well its been a few days, and I still haven't posted. This research paper I'm doing is taking up alot of my time, but expect a post in a few days about some stuff that has been on my mind for a long time. I just needed to put it paper. For right now, I'm catch up on "The Road" by Cormac McCarthy. Check it out.
Later yo.

Soon

I'm in english right now working on a Research paper on the moral question of Stem-Cells, but I really want to update the blog with something meaningful. Expect a new post soon!

Choosing Hope over Fear

I watched the Obama inauguration this afternoon, and I hope that even if you don't like him you watched it also. It seems that this country finally has a leader that has ambition, which is more important than the partisan bull. He has the will to finally get things done, to change the way this country runs. I'm a college student and I am genuinely excited about his eventual school reform. I'm not loving taking out loans with terribly high interest rates to go to school for four years, and then taking out more loans to go to graduate school for another four years. I'd like to have a family sometime in the future but how can I afford with with $150,000 dollars of debt and interest coming out of school.
He also doesn't sugar coat the shape the country is in, "That we are in the midst of crisis is now well understood. Our nation is at war, against a far-reaching network of violence and hatred. Our economy is badly weakened, a consequence of greed and irresponsibility on the part of some, but also our collective failure to make hard choices and prepare the nation for a new age. Homes have been lost; jobs shed; businesses shuttered. Our health care is too costly; our schools fail too many; and each day brings further evidence that the ways we use energy strengthen our adversaries and threaten our planet." He knows that people don't want a lie or some words we can hide behind, people want the truth. He speaks with authority and it actually makes me believe that something can be done to fix the country. I feel good just watching the inauguration, knowing that there is a chance that there is some selflessness left in Washington and that we do have a chance at a brighter tomorrow.

We are ready to lead.

The Beginning.

This is the start of something I've been wanting to do for a long time. I really can't wait to start talking about all kinds of things and hopefully get response from all kinds of people. See you soon.